Is it possible to deserve something?

When a doctor works very hard for decades and helps lots of people, even saving lives, does he deserve enough money to buy several houses, luxury vehicles and boats? What about when an African farmer puts in as many hours work as the doctor over several decades and is equally intelligent but was never able to afford university, lives in poverty his entire life, 4 of his 7 children die of easily preventable causes. What does he deserve? He worked as hard as the doctor for as many hours and is equally talented mentally and physically. Does he deserve a Porsche, lake house and boat? More? Or maybe nothing.



I feel really bad because I believe I’m a person filled with love, and I want to live a life of love, but every time I sit and write what I’m thinking, I’m writing things like this. Things that are negative. It’s not that I don’t love the doctor, or think that his hard work should be rewarded. I know a lot of doctors who are much more disciplined, intelligent and harder working than me and they absolutely deserve something, more than I deserve without a doubt. I guess I just feel like we live in a distorted world, where we are oblivious to the greater community we live in and because of that lack of balance, we expect things that shouldn’t be expected by anyone, at least now.



It’s not that I don’t love the doctor, it’s that I also love the farmer, and how can I sit and write about how great everything is when someone I love suffering so much?